In Search of "me"

I am not what others
think me to be
But I am what I think
Myself to be ...

I am not what others
Hear from me when I speak
I am what I speak to myself
In my conscience mirror

I am not of smile
Visible on the face
I am of tears
That never show a trace

I am not of the weakness
that others see
I am strength
Known alone to me

I am not what
Life destined me to be
But I am what
I desire my life to be

I am not what mere words describe me
But I am what
Silence speaks aloud

Yet I , me ,myself
Is still mystery to me......