Yea, I wrote a story !

"God has given the power to express happiness to several of his creatures but distinguisged human beings by bestowing them with with a genius to express magnificient sadness"

Her ship was sailing smoothly on the life's sea .

Though her brain had warned her, her heart didn't want to take its advice .And so she had accepted him as a part of her life , her friend wh0 was SPECIAL TO HER !

It was with 'him' where her dreams had taken roots.Without him,she would have never believed in the things , she believes ! She knew She had hurt him and this thing keeps gnawing at her heart inspite of much time that has been passed.

It was he who had brought this friendship closer to her heart but now she's the one who doesn't want to tear it apart from herself.

Not a week ever passed unconversed .Shaping ,dreaming , supporting , caring , craving ..........sharing !

But as each one of us knows waves of sea are as ever ruffled with its crests and troughs ,so her ship was bound to suffer .And life's not something which goes on according to our whims and wishes.

Her eyes were reflecting emotions like care , fear , patience and a silent tear. It had been days and not a 'brr' from him .'Silence of friends -it kills '.But this was what she would call silence before the storm.His silence had fidgeted her worry

After months it was him.She was entangled in web of her hearts emotions and brain's queries which increased in geometric progression when he told her-"I failed as a friend , this friendship can't go anymore ,I AM SORRY !"

She remembers everything about that day. She remembers every word and all those foolish , vain , unwary thoughts , as if fate had just slapped her face .She hated it.She hated him .But she knew , hate can't kill love, her love for her friend .

Everything seemed so empty and so meaningless to her.Dreams and assurances of staying together were in couple of minutes ruined like a palace of sand by mighty waves of sea , on sea-shore...
"Are relationships so frail and fragile that they can't withstand the test of time?
Some falter , some fail , some pass just without trail ...
Few talk of life time together but end at the first step "
Anaesthesia was poured into her little heart that it was too numb for sorrow and too cold for rage .
She knew that she needs to be impervious to hurts but this isn't something we do willingly .And Things that hurt , INSTRUCT ! mind it !
Time itself heals the wounds it makes and for unknown reasons and as unexpected he was back .May be because more suffering was on her part .At time , she had hurt him and now it was her time to repay .

Again ,it was he who had compensated for the chasm that had been created , gesturing that he really wants his friend , her back !They were same and different , what you would call after cementing job.

Still its true- We can deny the past but we can't escape its torment because the past is a speaking shadow that keeps pace with the truth of what we are !

Time is wise. It knows the game - how ro bring people closer and then to set them apart.
She was witnessing the change that followed , but it is futile to think of things which aren't in our hands .Sharing was replaced by asking .Knowing was replaced by telling.More 'sorry' making entry.Length of mail was reduced , gradually by couple of lines and offline messages.
There was too much that she wasn't understanding and there was too much that she wouldn't allow herself to ask..She usually condoled herself that its time and distance what needs to be conquered and crossed.

Though her world had been same for all these years , his world had changed- it was expanded.Neither of them had time with their careers to be addressed first .
Waiting is the whole thing she did.For her,hours of waiting had been transformed into tension ,tension had become tear and tear is something that makes you embarrassed about showing affection...
Sailing through tough times, she was thinking test times were over .Still more was there for her to learn and understand that Life -It screws you right when you think you have figured it all out.

She was screwed...

He told her -" I can't give you what you deserve .I want you to remain as you are but at the same time expect nothing from me.I am quiting the place soon .Don't miss me .Try to live isolated.I am not sure how long this relationship will go"

She wanted to scream - " If pain must come may it come quickly .She has a life to live and wants to live it in best possible way .If he has choice to make , make it now.That she will either wait ( as ever ) or forget him. Waiting is painful .Forgetting is painful but knowing not what to do is worst kind of suffering"

He had hurt her , leaving jagged edges where all her trust had been.She tried to convince herself that she didn't like him or respect him or admire him anymore but still she knew it was false.

He had said nothing more than she already knew to be true, but a black shark of grief had engulfed in her sea of thoughts.....

She had tried to fix her eyes on the clear and perfect stars of that fated nights sky , but again and again her concentration lapsed.
It was the night he had to make his final decision .
It was the night , she had cried
She couldn't help those dainty drops when she came to know that her friend is lost and doesn't really like her at all.
But you know - Stars and moon - both fight darkness and beautify night.Stars are persistent , though moving and expanding , while moon changes according to its phases.Still both accompany each other.
He had made his decision , she hopes , a final decision and a promise and for sure it was positive.
She had now understood - "Our friendship will suffer , will have dissappointments but all this is transitory and it leaves no permanant mark .And one day we will look back with pride and faith at the journey we have taken "

She knows that their friendship will never have happy ending because it will never end on her side ..........my dear friend !

Note: All stories have something in common .So you might have shared a few feelings with Pilar before.